Don't Ignore: "The Way We See It": Unknown

UNKNOWN

After 13 long years

It is still unknown

Will I ever parent?

Where do I belong?

For what do I plan?

And so I live in a world of the in-between

Not single or newlywed

Not parents yet not child-free

Not knowing

Childless

Is this my career my calling

No, a job with the benefits I want

Should parenthood find me

But what if not

What if

If I were child-free

I would change my job

Probably sell my house

Return to the city

Where I do feel at home

The unknown leaves me waiting

Though beyond even wanting

Lacking control yet feeling guilty

For not making decisions and plans

Guilty

If only I knew the answer

I could trade my guilt for action

Could know where I will fit

Could plan for tomorrow

Empowered

Some days I am so tempted

To forsake any hope of parenthood

For the knowing that comes

When child-less is traded

Once and for all

For child-free 

Submitted by: Lara

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Show us the world from your eyes and join "The Way We See It" Photography Project during National Infertility Awareness Week (April 22-28, 2012).

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